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This Visit 6.8.05 by badanimal1975, literature

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This Visit 6.8.05

The time of the Water Bearer brought the month of Horror Every night the piercing wail would wake me from my deep slumber Every day I would hear the curses, whines and the slapping of tender flesh The negative energy welcomed the infection into my abode I could see the skin rotting away as I was becoming a living corpse on both the outside and the inside I know that I exaggeate the so-called facts, but it is a symptom of my empty insanity Things returned to normal I started to become whole again, but I could still see the scars burned deep into my flesh, making a roadmap in my skin, showing me the fastest way to Hell

Getting to known you by badanimal1975, literature

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Getting to known you

The rain pounds against my simple home As I am trapped here in my fortress of solitude talking to the other lonely souls witholding my feelings and hiding myself I thought I had longed for this simple thing was I just fooling myself while I tried to pass for normal I'm not really inspired to write yet I feel I must accept the challenge I must fight and win and devour the opposition but there is no clear idea about what is good and what is evil which am I? The Challenger wants access to my soul and my secrets My facade is strong and clear Eventually this rain will erode my mountain of lonliness Eventually The Challenger will kno

Holidays 12.17.04 by badanimal1975, literature

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Holidays 12.17.04

Destitute and lonely The Yule begins Dreams left unfullfilled! Nothing accomplished! The swirls of red and white The clanging of bells and registers The whirlpool of money leaves a bad taste in my mouth I hope for a release in the eyes and mouths of strangers I try to be myself in my fictional life But, I am reality's whore The cheerfull facade is well protected But, if you look closely you'll see the cracks filled with sorrow and wisdom Desperate and alone I cry

The Friendly Game 12.13.04 by badanimal1975, literature

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The Friendly Game 12.13.04

The contest has begun The opponenets choose their sides The cliche rages on 5,6,9. pieces The game board is destroyed Beaten down the loser must regroup Slaughtered! Dying! Dead! The game starts anew Images coalesce into a new game board ripe for play 7, 12, 19 pieces Words grow more intense The former loser sobs He will win! The friend and the mate decide the outcome 1 piece wins the game The wind blows away the pieces It destroys the board The war has ended

Breakup by badanimal1975, literature

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Breakup

I woke up this morning with a gun in my hand you were all alone and I wish I was dead Even though our relationship was never real I still felt the pain of the thorns and the rivers of blood welling in my mouth I remember crying over you I remember feeling betrayed by a word A quick jab with a dirty word and my world fell apart I was alone I was angry I was broken Why do I feel pain? Why is this bothering me? I'M STRONGER THAN THAT! The snowfield of my bed became my sanctuary Then as it had done in the past, I heard the call I once called it the seductive siren, but it was more than that I held it in my hands and listened to

The Cardinal 5-22-04 by badanimal1975, literature

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The Cardinal 5-22-04

The US stole my memories, because I forfeit my right to keep them. Did they auction them off to the highest bidder? Did they dispose of them unceremoniously? Did they sell them to some second-hand store for a meager profit? Why do I care? I care because I feel empty; I feel a part of my past is gone, Otto, Twynkles, Dunse, Zero…have all become ghosts disappearing in the wind It was a long time ago, practically ancient history… How did I let this happen? Was it my fault? Who do I blame? I moved on and tried to fill the blanks in my soul Then the yearning for that part of me started to ebb out of the cracks in my cheerful façade I

The Night by badanimal1975, literature

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The Night

The Night has taken up residence in the fragile castle of my mind. Many eons ago I begged The Night to end my solitude, but I was rejected. I, alone had to fight the demons trapped in the attic. I had to vanquish them and submit them to the torture that I've had to endure my whole life. After betraying me, The Night looms over me and tries to steal my soul. There was once a time I would have welcomed the offer, but when I begged and pleaded I was answered only by silence. Every night, The Night shreiks. The Night begs me for a sacrafice. It begs for my endless sleep. Sometimes the shreiks are so loud I want to hurt myself and all oth

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The Night by badanimal1975, literature

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The Night

The Cardinal 5-22-04 by badanimal1975, literature

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The Cardinal 5-22-04

Breakup by badanimal1975, literature

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Breakup

The Friendly Game 12.13.04 by badanimal1975, literature

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The Friendly Game 12.13.04

Holidays 12.17.04 by badanimal1975, literature

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Holidays 12.17.04

Getting to known you by badanimal1975, literature

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Getting to known you

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Current Residence: Monterey Park...a lot better than a motel in Whittier
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Dead Again

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badanimal1975

Jul 22, 2004

Dream: Clinton Angel

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Dream Journal - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -  - - - - - - - - - - - - - I was visiting my Mom in an appartment that I know belonged to her, but not her current one.  She was living next door to her cousin, but they wern't getting along.  My Mom's cousin was watering her lawn and she sprayed the hose into my Mom's apartment and I was drenched.  Next to me on the sofa was a stuffed snake, like the ones that TY makes.  Anyway this toy slithered away from the sofa so it wouldn't get wet.  I was freaked out by it's movement and I could f

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badanimal1975

Jun 4, 2004

Fitting in

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I once wrote about the faceless and the nameless they are also cookie-cutters that I see The two varient lifstyles of the east and west The beautiful, rich snobs or the shabby artistes will I ever fit in? do I even want to? my sub-par writing can not express the bitterness that I feel when I try to be accepted.  I am shunned by these "people" Maybe I can find salvation with other outcasts like myself?

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torturegoddess

May 17, 2004

We don't have room under the bed for all that crap. You've seen the bed, it has drawers and stuff. And I do NOT want the bedroom smelling like rotting corpses. Anyway, hi sweetie. I didn't know if you knew my username, so here it is. Now you can look at my stuff, too. And my ridiculous list of favorites. Oh, and if Ernesto ever gives you a hassle about how dark your work is, just let him have a look at mine. Oh wait, he already has. Anyway, later.

Reznorock

May 3, 2004

Just 2 deviations? tsk tsk, work Harder not smarter LoL